Well, after much thinking and a response to my last post. We shall remain friends and just be there for each other as we have been.
So I'm at work and thinking oh how I wish I were at the park walking or at home relaxing watching a movie but no I'm here.
So today I find out that my co-worker who just returned to our office again in July of last year, has not completed a year as of yet, has requested a week vacation for March 3 thru the 7th. Here I was hoping to take a day or two off in March for spring break since my oldest is suppose to come down from Georgia. Let's see how quick my boss is to say yes to my weeks vacation when I request the FULL week this year and I will be taking a full week like it or not!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
Monday, February 11, 2008
Should I let go?
I feel so confused about some things in my life at this moment. I have this "Friend" who talks to me and the number of times we have seen each other face to face I can probably count on one hand.
How can one love somethnig or someone without ever being around them? You have these feelings that when they talk to you and share awesome moments or even sad moments in their life you can't help but feel happy, sad, excited, want to shed a tear for them. Well, that's how it is with my "Friend". Sometimes I feel like he's the one I want for the rest of my life BUT then I feel like it's not meant to be. I keep holding on to hope but then there are days that that hope starts to fade. We met by chance on a site and it's gone good from there but then there are days where I feel so frustrated with myself.
Why do I want to 'wait and see what happens', why do I want to hold on? There are days that I wake up and ask myself "Is today when I should let go and try to start a life with someone?"
He will always be my friend but because I can talk to him about anything and everything. I love him with my heart but I know that my love goes unanswered at this time and so I think to myself again, "Should I let go?"
How can one love somethnig or someone without ever being around them? You have these feelings that when they talk to you and share awesome moments or even sad moments in their life you can't help but feel happy, sad, excited, want to shed a tear for them. Well, that's how it is with my "Friend". Sometimes I feel like he's the one I want for the rest of my life BUT then I feel like it's not meant to be. I keep holding on to hope but then there are days that that hope starts to fade. We met by chance on a site and it's gone good from there but then there are days where I feel so frustrated with myself.
Why do I want to 'wait and see what happens', why do I want to hold on? There are days that I wake up and ask myself "Is today when I should let go and try to start a life with someone?"
He will always be my friend but because I can talk to him about anything and everything. I love him with my heart but I know that my love goes unanswered at this time and so I think to myself again, "Should I let go?"
Thursday, February 7, 2008
New Direction
Well, this morning I was reading the newspaper as I do each morning and for some odd reason the Volunteer Section drew me in. A few years back I worked as the order/delivery coordinator for the North Texas Food Bank and I enjoyed my job. I was also the room mom for my son's class at the time. So I coordinated with the school for a field trip to the NTFB for my son's 6th grade class to volunteer and help put together some food boxes. The kids all loved the idea and had a good time. After putting food boxes together they were given a tour of the place and were informed how and where the food boxes were going to go.
Well, back to this morning, I realize that I love to help and my daughter does as well. we volunteered a year ago at a christmas party for the Dallas Services for people with special needs. That was awesome!
Well, I think that me and my daughter will be helping out in other ways. I am going to look at the different agencies that are needing volunteers that will accept a 13 year as well and will start to help out in our community.
I can hardly wait!
Well, back to this morning, I realize that I love to help and my daughter does as well. we volunteered a year ago at a christmas party for the Dallas Services for people with special needs. That was awesome!
Well, I think that me and my daughter will be helping out in other ways. I am going to look at the different agencies that are needing volunteers that will accept a 13 year as well and will start to help out in our community.
I can hardly wait!
Monday, February 4, 2008
Come and Go
Well, another weekend has come and gone and all the while so is a life. Last Thursday my mother called me to report that her oldest sister was being rushed to the ER due to problems swallowing, even her own saliva.
After some test were done and completed, nothing was found. A little history, my 77 year aunt has had Parkinson's for the past 18 years. 18 YEARS!! Her Doctor says that he has never witnessed anyone last that long with it. Well, parkinson's has started to affect my aunt in her brain where now it has told it not to swallow. My aunt is fully alert and knows what's going on.
Without a feeding tube, which my aunt has been told is not an option, she will basically die of hunger. The doctor has mentioned that the feeding tube is not a solution since it will not correct anything but only prolong her suffering.
As of today she is doing good and there is absolutely nothing wrong with her other than her parkinsons. The doctor says that she is a very stong woman and that is why she has lasted so long with parkinsons. However, once they remove her I-V there is no telling how long she will last. It could be a day, a week, a month.
My aunt looks so tired and ready. She was talking with her deceased husband and she told him "I'm ready when you're ready to come and get me."
I will miss my aunt but I know that she will no longer suffer the affects from parkinsons and she will be reunited with her mother and father.
Ramona Rios Gonzales - Noted in the Congressional Book as "One of the most Notable Women of Texas"
After some test were done and completed, nothing was found. A little history, my 77 year aunt has had Parkinson's for the past 18 years. 18 YEARS!! Her Doctor says that he has never witnessed anyone last that long with it. Well, parkinson's has started to affect my aunt in her brain where now it has told it not to swallow. My aunt is fully alert and knows what's going on.
Without a feeding tube, which my aunt has been told is not an option, she will basically die of hunger. The doctor has mentioned that the feeding tube is not a solution since it will not correct anything but only prolong her suffering.
As of today she is doing good and there is absolutely nothing wrong with her other than her parkinsons. The doctor says that she is a very stong woman and that is why she has lasted so long with parkinsons. However, once they remove her I-V there is no telling how long she will last. It could be a day, a week, a month.
My aunt looks so tired and ready. She was talking with her deceased husband and she told him "I'm ready when you're ready to come and get me."
I will miss my aunt but I know that she will no longer suffer the affects from parkinsons and she will be reunited with her mother and father.
Ramona Rios Gonzales - Noted in the Congressional Book as "One of the most Notable Women of Texas"
Friday, February 1, 2008
Step one
Well, this morning I completed my first full week of taking vitamins for the first time in my life. And I started to watch what I eat and excerising 30 mins a day.
I am so excited and also very proud of myself!
I am so excited and also very proud of myself!
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